Lyrics
I used to sit back and
Watch my world cave in
Often just wishing for the bitter end
But I didn't bend
I never did transcend
To change myself
Be someone else to mend and then
I always falling apart
Trying to play the perfect part
Instead I was numbing my fragile hart
When all I was doing was
Trying to get a head start
I guess all along I wasn't that smart
Wish I could, wish I could
Blame it on my split personality
Or selfish fucking greed
But it was never my counterpart
It was me who was losing it
Drowning and grabbing at the weeds
Like I could ever escape me
And get away with becoming
The me I really need
I'm never gonna be
The me I really need
I'm too fucking lonely
My mind a chaos stampede
Wreck everything right before I succeed
I call this...
Self-sabotage
Self-sabotage
Self-sabotage
Tell me truthfully
Have you ever seen
Someone this goddamn crazy
My head just keep son screaming and yelling
And punishing the hell out of me
Am I addicted to the existential sadness
Do I really love the madness
Can we blame my chemical imbalance
My brain is whimsical
Not religious, fucking spiritual
Maybe one day I might really get to know me
So set on becoming me
But I'm so afraid of
Self-sabotage
WRITERS
Cate Dunn
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Top Emotion
Sadness
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Theme
Sexual
